All along my journey, there have been times where I simply wanted to quit and give up.
I have balled up my fists and with clenched teeth sputtered, “What is the point?”
It often happens when I am in position to do the next thing, and right before I move to take the next step, a strong wind of defeat and disillusionment will blow in and send me reeling in doubt.
Have you ever been there?
What if what you said you’d never do ended up opening the doors to healing, light, truth, and freedom?
I was headed to my very first counseling session in an absolute panic because I didn’t even want to answer the pre-counseling questions to explain why I was seeking counseling in the first place. I did not want to talk. I walked into her room and sat at the far end of the couch, with my hands fidgeting in my lap and my head down. I was so afraid, I was numb. I am not sure if I was visibly shaking, but I was shaking all over inside.
I told her I needed to be sure it was safe and that everything would be kept confidential. I let her know that I needed to heal as quickly as possible, and I would never want anyone else to know. I never planned to tell my husband or anyone else for that matter that I had been sexually abused as a child.
Last week on my birthday, I shared my story of healing from childhood sexual abuse on Christian Devotions Speak UP radio.
Click here to listen:: Speak UP Interview
There is a little girl in all of us. Maybe she’s running through a field of sunflowers, or maybe she’s tucked quietly away in a small dark closet. Wherever she is, Jesus loves the little girl in each of us.
Today you get to hear from her, the little girl inside of me, as she describes in her voice a recent experience at a praise service. This is her first post, so she’s a little nervous.