30 Days of Truth: He will make your paths straight.

Truth 29:  Trust in the Lord with all your heart and lean not on your own understanding; in all your ways submit to him, and he will make your paths straight.  Proverbs 3:5-6

A note from my journal:

Plans for Me.  Aug 26, 2012 

I sent email to a Christian Counselor who listed childhood sexual abuse as one of her specialties…and this was her verse: Isaiah 61:3..to give beauty for ashes, the oil of joy for mourning, the garment of praise for the spirit of heaviness that they might be called trees of righteousness…that He might be glorified.  *Panic*

I did it!  Aug 27, 2012  I called to make the appointment and the receptionist said she is no longer taking patients at this time. She scheduled me an appointment with another counselor.  I explained that I really wanted to see the Isaiah 61:3 counselor because I am looking for specific help with CSA.  She encouraged me to try this counselor as her profile indicates she can assist as well. I am sure God already knew this so I will just keep walking.

I remember my hands shaking when I picked up the phone to dial the counselor’s office and make the appointment. I had my heart set on the Isaiah 61:3 counselor, and I immediately felt intense disappointment and doubt when she said that counselor was not taking new patients.

As I was trying to listen to the receptionist, those unkind, mean and confusing voices in my head started yelling at each other all at once.

Maybe I shouldn’t go. Maybe this is not the place. 

Why am I even doing this?  

God, I thought you wanted me to see her! 

Maybe I can’t be helped.  I am crazy.

I will never get well! 

It’s too late.

Thankfully, the receptionist patiently encouraged me to make the appointment with the other counselor and to give her a chance.

God used the verse to point me to the right place, and the receptionist to point me to the perfect counselor, for me.

I just had to keep walking and trusting.

That was the beginning of my healing journey and that pattern played out over and over.

I wanted a map. I wanted the path to be perfectly clear, and then I would put my foot on the pavement and move. I wanted to know how it would all play out.

I wanted control.

Slowly, but surely God was whispering to my heart, “I want you to trust me.”

With healing, I had no idea what was going to happen next. I didn’t have a map, and I could not even see a path.

He was teaching me to listen for that quiet whisper to my heart, “This is the way, walk …”  and I would reluctantly step into the unknown.

God was patient with me.  

I wanted control. I wanted it my way. I wanted what made sense to me.

I made very strong statements to my counselor while gripping rocks in my hand on her safe sofa:  “I will not tell… I will not confront… I will not forgive!”

In those moments, I was relying on own limited understanding and operating in my own flesh, power and strength. My map was limited, and my control kept me frozen…

…and then God would whisper, “move…this way.”

I would take another step into the unknown, and He would prove faithful.

He was turning my “will not’s” into possibilities.

God was making my paths straight.

Place your trust in the Eternal; rely on Him completely;

    never depend upon your own ideas and inventions.

Give Him the credit for everything you accomplish,

    and He will smooth out and straighten the road that lies ahead. Proverbs 3:5-6 VOICE

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Do One Brave Thing

Prayer:  Lord, sometimes, I delay.

I hesitate.

I worry.

I fear.

I wonder what others will think.

I think:  it doesn’t matter, someone else already said it, and no one cares.

Then I waste time instead of doing anything you’ve called me to do.

When I step into my calling, I get overwhelmed, filled with fear, and I panic.

I feel like I need to be in control – and when I am stepping with you – I know I am not in control, and that is a scary place for me.

But stepping with you is the best place to me, the best place for me, and the best place ever.

So, I am letting go of that fear one day a time.

I am going to step where you ask me to step, say what you ask me to say, share what you ask me to share, write what you ask me to write and read what you ask me to read.

I am going to be intentional to sit at your feet and listen.  Help me to pursue my calling without fear, worry or anxiety. Help me to follow you.

I am going to do #OneBraveThing every day with you Lord, and I am going to trust you with it.

I am taking your hand.

Lord, lead me.

Amen.

What about you?  

What is Lord is calling you to do?  How are you using your gifts and talents to bring glory to Him? 

We have different gifts, according to the grace given to each of us. If your gift is prophesying, then prophesy in accordance with your faith;  if it is serving, then serve; if it is teaching, then teach; if it is to encourage, then give encouragement; if it is giving, then give generously; if it is to lead, do it diligently; if it is to show mercy, do it cheerfully. Romans 12:6-12 NIV

What do you do when you get into a rut or feel overwhelmed?  

Pray for His spirit to lead:  Teach me how to do Your will, for You are my God. Allow Your good Spirit to guide me on level ground, to guide me along Your path. Psalm 143:10 VOICE

Listen and Do #OneBraveThing:  This is about asking the Lord what He would have you do – today.  Just one brave thing.  This is about listening to Him, and walking in step with Him. When we are so busy checking off our lists and making our plans, many times we miss the opportunity He has for us!

This isn’t a to-do list – this is a Lord show me “what you would have me to do” list.   

Maybe is it sending a note to someone, or picking up the phone and having a conversation or meeting in person.

Maybe it is stopping to chat with the cashier in the grocery store.

Perhaps it’s inviting someone to church and offering to pick them up.

For bloggers, maybe it is updating your blog or sharing old posts. How can we use them to reach others who may need encouragement?

Start your day by asking God to show you the #onebravething that he would have you do today!  If you end up doing more than #onebravething, great!

We were created for a purpose and we are called to bring glory to Him.  

What is the #onebravething you will do today to shine His light? Share in the comments below or share on Facebook, Instagram or Twitter using the hashtag #onebravething! Let’s inspire and encourage each other along the way. I’d love to have you join me on the journey to do #onebravething. 

Here’s another way to put it: You’re here to be light, bringing out the God-colors in the world. God is not a secret to be kept. We’re going public with this, as public as a city on a hill. If I make you light-bearers, you don’t think I’m going to hide you under a bucket, do you? I’m putting you on a light stand. Now that I’ve put you there on a hilltop, on a light stand—shine! Keep open house; be generous with your lives. By opening up to others, you’ll prompt people to open up with God, this generous Father in heaven. Matthew 5:14-16 MSG

Shine Bright! 

It is well

My soul is weary with sorrow

What do you do when you are laid low in the dust and your soul is weary with sorrow?  

I have been struggling.

It’s been hard to write. It has been hard to pray. I have not wanted to engage or connect with others. Old fears, lack of trust, and questions have returned and plagued my mind and sleep.

The mended places in my heart have been ripping open, and it is painful. I have been knocked flat, thrown off track, and it is all beyond my control.

Surrender doesn’t always come easy.

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