Truth 23: My heart trusts in Him.
Notes from my journal:
January 19, 2013: God is in Control.
I literally freeze with absolute fear when I think of things that could cause all kinds of Domino effects and feel complete and absolute responsibility over where, when, and how each domino falls. For example, but if I say_____ then she will ______ which will make them________ who will then destroy_____________, and then… Well, I better just shut up and smile because now I am scared to death!
The last paragraph is where I found myself this week. Paralyzed with fear. Consumed with “What if’s” and “But then’s”. My counselor gently brought to my attention that God is BIG enough to fill in all those blanks. The truth is I am not capable of working any of it out, but I realized I am also afraid to let Him or believe that He can.
All of the things that I do to protect me, to protect my world leaves very little room for HIM to do His thing.
He can and will work everything out for good…IF I LET HIM which will require me to let go of fear and trust Him.
I like how it says MY HEART trusts in Him. I can tell you my head trusts in Him, but I see now how my heart is learning to trust… even in Him.
If I believe in His unfailing love, then I am also called to believe and know that He is God and I can trust Him with the big details and the small details of my life.
Giving Him control frees me up to be used by Him, knowing He will be with me. He will protect me. He is in charge. I don’t have to juggle and manage so much when I am tapped into His strength and follow His direction, His leading, and His prompting.
Let the Domino’s fall where they may. He is a Big God. He is in control. I am His beloved daughter and I am simply called to OBEY and TRUST Him… with all of my heart.
The Eternal is the source of my strength and the shield that guards me. When I learn to rest and truly trust Him, He sends His help. This is why my heart is singing! I open my mouth to praise Him, and thankfulness rises as song. Psalm 28:7 VOICE