Chopped Liver?

   
On Sunday, I wrote down Use Your Words! in my notes. I was thinking about the last post – Backpacking and how I always feel like I have said a lot. I think the images, songs and pictures speak volumes. Sometimes even the words I use do not say everything. Chopped liver are two words that I have been aware of hearing in my head a lot lately. I guess I heard it growing up – but basically if you have heard it used as an expression it may sound like: “What am I? Chopped Liver?”

I googled it recently and Wikipedia defines it as “frustration or anger at being ignored on a social level” or “to express a feeling of being overlooked, as a ‘side dish’ “… The Merriam Webster dictionary gets a little closer with “one that is insignificant or not worth considering”.

 I don’t say it out loud typically. I just think it.

I think it when I walk into a room and the conversation shifts, or eyes dart. I think it when a comment is made that I can replay over and over until I am convinced it was hurtful. I think it when I feel dismissed or left out. I think it when someone says I am so lucky to have my husband or anyone else in my life. I think it often, and I realize it now. *Disclaimer – I am lucky to have my husband in my life. He cleans, does laundry, vacuums, etc…so I will hear often…you are so lucky and I think – what am I chopped liver?? Does anyone tell him that he’s lucky? Oh, my brain.

That last post….. the Backpacking. Those big heavy backpacks – they are chopped liver. All that stuff – that makes me feel insignificant, unworthy, unloveable, – side dish. That is chopped liver. That big heavy backpack that has been so heavy for so long…. it is finally getting lighter because:

 

I AM NOT CHOPPED LIVER – and you are not either.

 

Ephesians 2:10
For we are God’s handiwork, created in Christ Jesus to do good works, which God prepared in advance for us to do.


 
I pay attention now when that thought comes to mind. I have to remind myself of the truth – I am not chopped liver.

 
Chopped liver: Adjusting, questioning or evaluating who you are based on another person’s attitude, speech or demeanor regardless of their intentions. It typically kicks into high gear when the backpack is in the front and heavy. When the backpack is in its proper position (with some pink of course!) and your head is high and focused on Christ….then you know you are not chopped liver and when those moments occur you ground yourself in the truth of who you are in Christ no matter what! It doesn’t matter what their intentions are – you recall who you are in Christ and you do what he has called you to do.


 
Chopped liver is also believing that everyone sees the backpack and everything in it. It’s deep insecurity. It’s believing I wear it and it’s visible for all to see. It’s like being green all over. No place to hide it. So outwardly I work really hard to appear okay and inwardly I am crashing over and over. I think if I can just convince everyone that I am not chopped liver …and recently I realized it’s me that I need to convince the most… I am not chopped liver.

It does not matter what other people think, say or do. I am not chopped liver. I try not to think “What am I? Chopped liver?” And instead say – this feels like chopped liver but I am the apple of His eye. He is my shield. He hides me in the shadow of His wing. He chose me. He rescued me. He is with me always. I am not alone. I am not green. I am not chopped liver. I am a daughter of the King! I am His Princess – and oh, how I need Him!

 
This is new for me and I am a work in progress. Some days my backpack has just fallen off and the focus is on the floor again and how to recover. I am thankful that I am now trying to see my world through the filter of truth rather than that backpack. What truths do you cling to when you feel like “chopped liver”? What verses help you to defeat the the lies of the enemy?
 
Philippians 3:12-14 The Message
Focused on the Goal
I’m not saying that I have this all together, that I have it made. But I am well on my way, reaching out for Christ, who has so wondrously reached out for me. Friends, don’t get me wrong: By no means do I count myself an expert in all of this, but I’ve got my eye on the goal, where God is beckoning us onward to Jesus. I’m off and running, and I am not turning back.
 
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One thought on “Chopped Liver?

  1. Thank you for sharing this post. Hiding the truth of Jesus in our hearts helps to counter the lies of the enemy…..We are deeply loved, redeemed, forgiven and marked as His… No power of hell can snatch us from His hands. Applying these truths in moments of insecurities sends the devil running from us. The more we practice this with God's help, the less frequent the enemy's lies will impact us……

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